This isn’t just art—it’s a journey toward wholeness.

The sea, I expressed the fear of nature that is so powerful and relentless. The death of my father has swept away my tears and waves of pain and sorrow. What I wanted to hold, yet I enjoyed creating my emotions through tangible art processes.

Anger and resentment. I began pasting the masking tape without any particular purpose, then I used mixed colours. When I removed the tapes, the figure on the left appeared demonic and angry, facing the black, which resembled a phallic shape.

After I completed the Shadow - Jung workshop, I felt a deep calm, as if my whole body sank into the ground, feeling both connected and weightless. My shadow has always been with me; it belongs to me. I know I will die one day, yet I have never wanted to die—I only wanted to have truly existed. I smell the soil on the plant and place it on my tummy. I feel as if I am reborn. This is my eudaimonia.

When I'm feeling unwell, I find comfort in drawing and painting. Watching the water levels at Marble Hill House rise high in the park was a truly breathtaking and calming sight, filling me with a sense of peace and wonder.

I grew up in South Korea and decided to move past grief and family ties. After about 15 years in the UK, I've built my own family and now face the future confidently. My emotions of sorrow and sadness are coming and going; the box has been opened, but its contents are unclear, leading to a sense of self-awareness.

Mother as a chair, unconscious motherhood. I recall having a sketch of a mother holding a baby on the current. I was in my early 20s, and somehow, my motherhood came out unconsciously in the paint. After 20 years, it is now consciously being painted, even before I became a mother. Perhaps, I yearned for a deep connection, regardless of circumstances, and sought to compensate for it through my thoughts and emotions.

Painting that moment filled me with a deep joy, as if I was capturing a fragment of my soul in the vivid reds of the colours, reliving the emotion and warmth of our shared experience.

I've realised that I wasn't permitted to express suppressed emotions, whether related to favourites, likes, or dislikes. I feel quite feminine, so there's no need for me to appear bold or masculine.

I painted this scene from the doorway, capturing the moment of my four-year-old daughter's departure, and her enchanting footsteps. I felt sadness knowing she would leave someday, and I experienced a sense of grief related to parenthood. The long staircase was illuminated across the street.

The calmness I see in birds and trees reminds me that I shouldn't detach myself from my inner self, no matter what my surroundings are. It encourages me to reflect on what it truly means to stay mentally and emotionally undisturbed.

I look forward to revisiting my childhood; my box is among others that have been moved around. Today reminds me of who I used to be. I still don't understand what is clear or upcoming, or what happened before. I felt like a lonely girl then, and now I feel lonelier than I did when I coloured in blue at present and showed my back. My younger self laughs and smiles, yet I feel lonely and resentful. I'm developing a sense of abandonment, but also becoming independent.

Integrating the scattered emotions. 2025, Mixed media.

I carefully assembled the Collage as part of my will, a poignant reminder of the life I cherish. The thought of death and the inevitable separation from this existence evoke a deep, complex sense of loss and longing, making the act of creation a bittersweet act of holding onto memories and confronting the profound reality of impermanence.

Santokki (산토끼, Hare) It is a project centred on a transitional object that explores attachment by helping children (the young self) reconnect with their caregiver after separation. I designed the Hare, a spiritual toy characterised by love and curiosity, which was abandoned during my childhood.

After the psychodynamic workshop, I took a walk on a chilly early winter morning at Bore Place in 2024. As the sunrise approached, the air was a bit cold, but the surroundings felt peaceful. I felt a sense of grounding and finally encountered my younger self. We had a lengthy conversation, which was both amusing and touching.